Late Night Thoughts
shadress denise
©2016 Shadress Denise
©2016 Blue Indigo Publishing
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This is a work of fiction. Any references or similarities to actual events, real people, living or dead, or to the real locals are intended to give the novel a sense of reality. Any similarity in other names, characters, places, and incidents are entirely coincidental.
Also written by Shadress Denise www.iamshadressdenise.com
Disturbia (2014)
Who Do You Love? (2014)
Who Do You Love Too? (2015)
hello. goodbye. never again (2016)
LIBERATED (2016)
broken promises are only the beginning…
a heart like flypaper / kindness never knew us / i won’t keep you / shattered glass and bruised
egos / hardwood oceans between lovers / parted lips and your pardon / the waltz at midnight /
vacation from drowning / pause and repent / parachute promises / paper thin skin / morning
mourning / the lies i tell you / motel pools after two / doorstep / dirty heart martinis / her god /
rapunzel draws the line / the traveling salesman / instincts are basic / a house is not a home /
buried within his lips / nothing last forever / heart virus / rolling stones & spinning wheels / after
party, after heartache / ancient memories / checkmate / scared of lonely / peter pan / love
letter / something like marilyn monroe / immortal ink / cannabis / under the influence /
catastrophes / purgatory / mixed messages / shallow graves / baptismal purges / side effects
from a radioactive love / false promises and unwarranted aches / puzzle pieces / fabric imprints/ all i want is you / new adventures / goodbyes last longer / fantasies die slow / do you know
gepetto / hidden adversaries / half of me / regulars at the racetrack / codependency is a drug /
cold case love / dreamin’ eyes of mine / inside my skin / membranes / poseidon / cabin fever /
…..heartbreak comes next
wild, wild, west / midnight solicitation / delirious / the devil in my coffee cup / old wounds never
really heal / he was a category 5 / shelf life / desolate hearts aren’t meant to be tamed /
chernobyl / hansel & gretel / fatalities of reality / espionage / force feed / the sheets remember
you / temptation between my teeth / i hear you ticking / shackled to a lie / trade secrets of
embargoed love / truth hurts / harley quinn / robbery in the first / firefly / crazy thing call love /
pusher / morning cocktails / déjà vu built a fortress / post survivor / uninhibited / mississippi
moonshine / pyromanic / devout / classified bipolar / dream lover / camouflage / hide go seek
/ buried alive / beggars can’t be choosy / shrapnel / ventriloquist / provocateur / frankenstein’s
lover / halos and devils horns / close to you / la tragedie belle / pirates running amuck / if i
could un-part my thighs / a night of no new things / confessions & apologies / interludes of drunk
texting / urgency / back of a milk carton / prophets / silent protests at picket lines
and then late night thoughts that drive you mad…
porcelain doll / codeine please / pull the life support already / fresh dirt on an old grave /
legacies of ruin / because every summer is still winter / lying goes a long way / misery riot / we
gave something up / my feelings need a sponsor / fool’s gold / cupid got lost somewhere /
imperfections of a perfect love / 6:30am calls / vintage hearts break the hardest / highest
bidder at the empty auction / imposters / that which binds us / fuck
your black market feelings / again on repeat / the things we carry / self-inflicted wounds hold no
blame / why does she stay / suicidal notes / be your version of love / cloud 9 / perfect love
affair / warning labels / it’s just different / grey / an echo and a reminder / ghost stories at
breakfast / jonesing for september / outlaws
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It’s funny how this book came about. I had just finished another poetry book when these poems just started coming. The late-night thoughts intertwined between the poems started nothing more than text messages I either sent (some I didn’t) to someone who was once dear to me. Before I knew it, I began posting them on Instagram and then they manifested into being the perfect glue binding the poems together. Who would’ve ever thought simple text messages to someone you used to love could be poetry…not me! Though here we are; another book, another set of feelings in black and white. My personal therapy that doesn’t ever really cost me anything so I hope you enjoy reading them as much as I enjoy writing them.
So now of course, with the completion of every new book, there are more people to thank. More people who have been a part of my journey. More people who have contributed their sprinkles of love, lessons, and support into my life. There would never be enough room in my books to thank each of them without writing another one (laughs)! I think about each letter & each word that makes up my poems and I smile at how in some way whether good or bad, so many of you have inspired me. I will never be grateful enough for my family, friends, frenemies and reader fans who give me a reason to write. I have always found comfort in writing and it’s the one place I can be authentically me without the worry of what people will say (not that I care anyway…shrugs).
So, to you those who have played an intricate part in my life…. thank you!
Nothing good ever came from it beating,
therefore, I carved it out and stuck it to the wall.
It always had a knack
for attracting the wrong things,
falling prey to the wrong kind of love,
catching dangerous feelings.
It never served me any purpose
other than keeping me alive
and the moment you walked out,
I came to see it was nothing but a trap.
Nothing but a poisonous illusion
that unwillingly drew you in and
somehow let you escape with everything,
including the inner workings of my heart.
after taping my heart
back together again.
Glue never did anything
other than remind me
of how nothing
you ever said would stick;
though my broken heart
and ravished soul
would prove me wrong.
I long for the days,
you would whisper
sweet words in my ears
as you caressed the gentle monster
that dwelled within my frame.
I longed for the days,
our words no longer
hurt each other
and it would no longer feel
like kindness never knew me,
you, and this lie we called love.
There will always be a place
in your heart,
hidden away where no one can see
that she will always reside.
In a secluded place,
buried deep is your love for her.
A flicker of a flame burning bright for only her.
I have tried to find it,
but no matter how hard I’ve tried,
I can never find its true spot.
So, I won’t keep you.
I won’t hold the love
you have stored away for only her
hostage any longer.
I wanted to say I’m sorry.
I wanted to beg for your forgiveness,
but the ceiling
we knew had been cracking over the years,
now lay at our feet.
The reflections of who we used to be
were thrown across the room.
Wounds that once healed,
opened as the new bruises
we inflicted on each other
were now exposed.
There was no turning back.
No picking up the pieces.
Everything we had fought to be
was now shattered, broken and permanently
bruised because we
wanted to be free.
Always flowing
your love reminded me of water.
Like the ocean,
you were everywhere I turned.
Like rivers,
our love once flowed from head to toe.
Many times, I found myself
lost within the depths of your soul.
Now I stand here,
abandoned and searching