Writings by Sha’Ra On WindWalker
(in collaboration with Sha'Tara EarthStar)
Copyright (©) 2019 Cocoons to Butterflies Publishing
Published by: Cocoons to Butterflies Publishing
Chilliwack, B.C. Canada
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Space Picture: ESA/Hubble
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The Only Constant Thing Is Change
The Hollow House (An Observation)
These books contain a form of free verse poetry, opinions based on observation, and some humour and imagination, engaging the heart as well as the mind. A critical look at many current issues intriguing and plaguing man. Spirituality, interaction with nature and environment, social changes, dwindling resources. Well worn issues now, indeed. But the poetry and other works in these books gives this subject a different perspective. I daresay that here we can find a "higher" vantage point from which to look at ourselves within the cosmos.
Who knows but some of the ideas in the books may get you inspired to do that thing you always wanted to do, even if this comes in a very small way, to make your corner of this world a better place to be in. Who knows but you may realize your little corner is a really nice place to be in after all.
It's all about life, if at times expressing life "outside the box" as the saying goes.
As dandelion seed-heads
blowing seeds over the land,
creative thoughts
scatter to change the world.
Freely across the surface of the earth
they spread in whispering breezes
of changing times.
Wherever fertile soil is found
they spring,
create new worlds
filled with hope within new hearts.
Of the thought creators,
These are the ones
who long to walk
their fields of dreams.
As twisted shadows
in shades of night,
giants abide
formless, yet deadly;
threatening, knowing
time is their friend.
Ancient giants,
uncivilized, fearsome,
trampling about
unguarded borders,
ever watchful,
seeking unwary victims.
Confusion, uncertainty, fear;
anger, stress, despair:
where will the attack come from
this time?
I grow so tired of fighting:
couldn't I just let them pass,
turning away
from their baleful eyes,
never again to stare down
their ugly mien,
Yet how could I?
They rule this world
fueling its systems
and I won't become
just another pawn!
In shifting winds
and rising tides
I journey alone,
my soul seeking release,
yearning to return
to another place
vaguely remembered.
Waves crash endlessly
against jagged rocks
inexorably eroding away
these stubborn monoliths
As my body is transformed
by the harsh reality of experience
I find myself reshaped also,
as the storms of life
sift through my scattering remains.
Worn down, transformed,
I find myself freed at last
from the shattered remnants
of an earthly body
and my spirit ascends
to seek a new beginning.
The camp fires still burn
as ghost dancers step soundlessly
in swirling, spiraling smoke
weaving an old tale across the night sky.
Outside the flickering shadows
of the dwindling night fires
a she-wolf stands alert,
twin points of incandescence
observing the ghost dance unfold
past the meeting point of days.
Sleeping under leather blankets,
the tribe receives the vision
to strike camp and relocate
for the place has become stagnant,
threatened by disease,
discovered by the enemy,
reeking of sudden death.
The shaman, in his dream,
reveals the message of the dancers,
through the motherly instinct of the wolf:
"Go! Break camp, move on
where the she-wolf prowls under pale moon,
where tall trees protect from inclement weather
and hide from dangerous prying eyes;
where water and visions are clear."
In obedience to the voice of Spirit
as in times uncounted,
the morning sun welcomes the tribe
breaking camp, preparing to trek:
no one will turn to look back
upon the weather beaten grass huts
nor the cooking circles
where the smoke still rises
in silent farewell.
It seems quite obvious
hardships, pain and suffering
are for most the norm.
It seems equally true
that most who live in rich nations
are quite blinded to this fact -
unless the fact can sell commercial time
and it is splashed on the TV
or headlined in the newspaper -
Ignoring the plight of millions
cannot be so easy, can it?
Apparently, it can.
Just call it “cognitive dissonance.”
Call it lack of empathy.
Call it lack of compassion.
But really, it’s lack of awareness.
I met a fellow-traveller
who had seen many parts of this world,
- not the touristy-type places
splashed as bill-boards on ocean-fronts -
but places where everyday is a struggle
and each struggle, an adventure.
He claimed the people he met
in those skeletal places
changed his outlook on life.
It was there he saw compassion come alive
for the very first time.
It was there people showed him life
is neither about money nor possessions,
nor about finding happiness.
It was there he heard laughter as from a child -
free and sincere.
There he tasted food fully appreciated
and there he found
he could give thanks for life
for each day there is a miracle -
not of survival as many believe
but of joyful acceptance.
A crimson sun dips
beneath a singing ocean:
I hear
that whisper again:
your name in the flowing tide.
How true,
nothing
ever remains the same
as the earth turns.
Will I ever stop believing
that you will return to this cold place
lighting the fire of love
by the simple magic
of one touch?
Without you,
I am but a flicker,
a wavering candle flame
in winter's endless night.
The sky darkens:
I stare at the waning moon:
Old memories: enough already!
In the morning
I shall let the sun's rays
dissipate my despair;
dethrone my demons;
delineate my dance:
I shall turn this page,
start a new creation.
Life remains choice,
even in our greatest losses.
Night shadows dissipate
in dawn's enchanted songs;
of nature's carefree ways.
Gently she arouses
dormant passions,
intense emotions.
A brilliant light bursts
in my mind's eye:
I see beyond the tunnel
along a path long abandoned.
Now offered freely to my feet,
I choose to follow
this path of life,
this statement of love.
In her garden of flowers;
amidst fragrances unnamed;
my soulmate, my true love
rises to greet me
and remembrance sweeps over me
as her embrace consumes
infinite love's desire.
If I were to be asked,
“What is life about?”
I would respond simply by reading
this poem.
In the footsteps of the Cosmic breeze,
a soul has blossomed on flowers of rain
who now walks upon ridges of spirit cliffs:
he’s the one who knows, the watcher.
But below, where life’s path is still an arduous choice,
another cries for freedom but finds it not.
Here life calls for unceasing shifts in seasonal changes;
youth’s strength fails with Spring’s passing,
followed by sweaty toil in broiling Summer’s heat.
Comes Autumn’s cool but brief relief
only to be followed by more vagaries
and the uncertain hardships of Winter’s ice and snow
when finally one’s body is laid low.
One can go through these manifold changes,
finding satisfaction in accomplishments and survival,
yet remain quite blind to the greater flow of life
that could be found within an awakened human heart.
A life of pleasure, of angst, of passion, of success:
what does that prove, if all around
injustice and sorrow still rule under the passing sun
and under a moonless darkness, death
brings forth the blackest night?
Yes, death must come, a thief in the night
to steal away all that was accomplished in time -
others will buy the musty manuscripts
on which some great life was scribed or scribbled -
but who so lived will have no choice
but to return upon the wheel to try again, try again!
Each time hoping to find that magic key
that unlocks the door to freedom from
the very last spasm of fate’s desire.
The questions before us,
that is, the global community board,
are straightforward, gentlemen:
When will oil reserves peak?
(They already have.)
How much time do we have until then?
(None, obviously.)
What alternatives have we in place
to bring us a new way of life?
(That would be none also.)
What secure source
of alternative energy do we have?
(And none also.)
Ah but the great train of progress
and mindless business
will careen along and go off the track
and we can blame, let's see:
corporatists, capitalists, communists
and let's not forget the socialists;
throw in some aliens... the spotted owl -
global warming, (or is that warning?)
planetary changes, the Mayans:
if there's blame to attach,
the individual is safe, totally safe
to die happy in the dark.
It's not lack of energy - it's
dollar store-drive-through mentality -
for we are no longer people
sharing a small planet in alien space:
we've been promoted to the wonderful
Wall Street Disney Hollywood World status
of consumers. We're Consumers
and our credit cards speak thunderously
of the great power entrusted to us all,
that we may consume everything.
There's a problem with that:
Earth isn't a shopping mall.
It's a finite world, an ecological marvel -
the only one in an entire solar system
and it's been eaten up - consumed -
all but crumbs to war over.
Where else to build
more Wal-Marts and Home Depots?
Now what?
Solar, wind, hydrogen, ethanol?
By comparison to that raw power
of a Middle-Eastern tiger in the tank,
pretty mild alternatives, these.
There's a solution hanging about
near-by in the fringes of our suspicion:
a complete change of individual lifestyle,
not of future,
not of tomorrow,
but of this very moment.
That could prevent collapse.
But not to worry, it won't happen
for the conclusion
from that famous sermon on the
World Class Mound of Garbage
as uttered by a laughing Milton Friedman ghost
says, (and I quote):
Blessed are the brain dead idiots
for they shall die at the wheel of their SUV
and be spared the horrors of tomorrow.
There is a star in the night sky,
one that shines for me alone;
one I have tried to reach,
yet the closer I seem to get,
at certain times,
the farther away it appears
the very next night.
Will I ever reach that star
I have followed so faithfully?
Just then an old man passing by
seemed to read my thoughts:
"I, for one, am thankful,
the star I have been striving for
remains ever out of reach;
then I can continue to seek it,
and in doing so,
I can find countless ways,
to walk through this life.
"When my focus is on that star,
and not on the worlds I pass through,
chances are I will enrich these worlds,
as I use them as stepping stones,
dancing over them lightly
while going on my own way.
The cosmic dancer
does not desecrate the stage
nor step falsely to the music --
she is the dance!"
Someone walks
alone along the freeway
searching for 'returns'
to sell a dealer
for smokes and pet food.
someone stands
alone on a corner
the sign says:
"I need work, please?"
hoping without hope.
someone runs
alone and breathless,
fleeing the scene
the blood and cold
of murder and fear.
someone crouches
alone by a locked door -
battered and torn,
tear-filled eyes closed:
no one opens.
someone shuffles
alone in thought
towards the faraway desk
to be dismissed with a shrug:
"Not eligible -next!"
someone lies
alone in rain-soaked death
behind the hardware store:
"Another damned O.D.!"
the only eulogy.
someone postures
alone, though surrounded
in laughter, lies and money
the rich one's entourage
designer of human misery.
someone wanders
alone and scared many years
the light of love
gently opens darkened thoughts:
life streams in.
Arousal from the caress of gentle hands:
soft skin becoming firm;
two beings sharing energy
in a surging flow of love
from one body to another,
a sacred dance of the heart,
a moment of pleasure,
a spark of joy released.
When love-making reaches
the point of orgasmic bliss;
when with tears and knowing
they bond together,
body to soul, soul to body,
lying on soft green moss,
reveling in their earthly energy,
their unbound power:
is this not one of the highest ways
two could ever honour
God,
Creator,
Mother,
Earth
in short, Life?
What is this thing we label “sorrow” -
this bottomless pain of the heart
we feel at the worst of times?
Sorrow - emptiness - lostness -
here, nothing gives pleasure;
nothing satisfies; nothing -
only the endless ache,
no comfort, no place to hide.
What to do when sorrow
suddenly claims a piece of life?
Are we helpless?
Victims of circumstances
that only time can heal?
Ah, but is time such a great healer?
Observe: do the old get better?
No, time does not heal - time kills -
a bit faster in sorrow!
What to do, then?
Sorrow is a double-edged sword,
one edge jagged and rough,
that is the selfish sorrow -
the one that leaves a raw cut
which every little aggravation
exacerbates;
one edge sharp and smooth:
this is the great Cosmic sorrow -
when one's sorrow is all-sorrow,
no longer a burden, but a part of life
and this sorrow, if understood
becomes the stuff of joy.
Sorrow may slice through the heart:
we choose either the murderer's blade
or the surgeon's scalpel.
Waking from a gentle dream
I behold a strange world
spread out before my eyes
in ever-brightening hues.
I stretch my arms to the sky
and begin to dance freely
to the music of the stars;
the sun and moon join in
and following their laughter
I spin freely around the world.
From the distant horizon
A silhouette beckons
and I hear laughter
as the breeze teases her hair
and I walk to her lightly
heart beating, knowing:
my twin flame, lost companion
of times beyond time
encouraging my uncertain return...
She takes my hand in hers
and together, laughing, dancing
we step from planet to planet;
from galaxy to galaxy
and reaching what seems the end
are universes stretching out,
stepping stones for joyful feet
through pulsating space.
Transported by the joy of love
we make ourselves as one again
poised to enter our now time
while the children are asleep:
gently, I take her in my arms
and the fears, tears and years
are re-absorbed and vanish.
The weather:
It's not what shapes our lives
but a 'safe' topic that provides
inexhaustible discussion material.
Whether we know it or not,
there is always more than enough weather
to fill any conversation.
There's a bonus to talking about weather:
it is generally believed no one
can influence its course,
whether they'd like to or not.
Therefore, no blame can be attached
when speaking of the weather,
and that makes it a great greeter:
How about that weather, huh?
Yeah, it's really something, isn't it.
Also, weather topics
cannot degenerate into gossip;
or be considered secret.
Imagine someone coming to you
and whispering conspiratorially:
"Did you know? It's raining out!"
And you turn in shock and whisper,
"You don't say! How disgusting.
How could they let that happen!"
So you see that is why
people love to talk about the weather
whether there's any point to it
and there really never is.
So what's my point?
How can intelligent creatures
waste their lives addressing a subject
that has no point at all?
You may have to wear rubber boots
to slosh through wet snow
but no danger of getting in too deep
talking about it:
Internal weather is quite shallow -
and safe.
See dawn break,
over pink topped mountains;
notice a rare flower open
to welcome the morning sun,
fearless of the unknown
implied in any new day.
Open new possibilities,
at every moment:
welcome this change
moment to moment,
know its purpose - or know it not,
life in motion.
Like that rare flower,
it pays to remember,
the only constant thing
life is sure to give is change.
In love greet
change with open heart
for when open to change,
any thing is possible,
anything...
and here's a bonus:
accept the small change,
you'll always have some money in hand.
I thought I'd write
something powerful,
beautiful,
about the city:
I thought I'd write
about big stores and malls,
giant buildings,
parkades, skywalks, elevators
one-way streets and sidewalks,
colorful people walking,
children in tow, laughing.
I was all ready to write
when someone laughed,
an ugly, cynical laugh:
Well, no... maybe I'll wait.
I'll go down to skid row
tomorrow;
then visit the city jail;
take in a court case or two
and next week
I'll write about the city.
The wild easterly sweeps from the open sea;
gray ocean waves batter a gravelly shore,
their white-crested manes tossed
like some watery hell stallions galloping,
neighing their freedom; thundering madly
over a heaving, frothy wintery moor.
Whipped snow and sand hiss among brown grasses
mixing brown sugar puddings, drifting, filling,
mercilessly driving shorebirds from shelters.
Plaintively peeping to one another
these seek new refuge among standing rocks.
White gulls glide on motionless pinions,
skirting lashing waves, crying;
black cormorants in rapid wingbeats
skim the green tempest purposefully
diving out of sight in rolling trenches.
Scavenging along the thunderous beach
turnstones and black oystercatchers
seek their allotment of daily sustenance
among tortured seaweed and rolling gravel
occasionally bashing to its death
a small crab flung high upon the shore.
From a distant rock hidden by driven clouds
a mournful horn blares its warning:
!warning!!warning!!warning!...
warning passing trawlers and freighters to
!stay away!!stay away!!stay away!!
The storm rages unabated
its perceived violence proving once more
that in contest between man and sea
primordial force will always possess
the last word upon this magical world.
Who
are the future makers?
Are they the ones
who
dare to dream
dare to think,
dare to live,
dare to see,
dare to walk
dare to question?
Who
dare to dream new dreams,
dare to think new thoughts,
dare to live life upside down,
dare to see the new in the old,
dare to walk the unknown
dare to ask new questions?
Who
are the future makers?
Always pulling to the dark side, always;
the black clouds fit our mould so well,
shaping our evanescent, misty lives!
The phone rings: another old friend
depressed, lonely, lost, afraid
in fevered mind drugs no longer numb.
"Hi! I know, it's been a long time--
do you remember who this is?"
"Sorry, no, I don't. You must have
dialed a wrong number by mistake."
"It's me, Phil: don't you remember?
The demonstrations, the peace marches?
Phil, it's Phil!" Desperate, slurred words,
incoherent speech, childlike hope.
So sad, I feel, even if I don't connect:
I pretend long enough, just enough
for the past to reclaim its portion
of memory no longer used or wanted:
the long forgotten, undesired past;
its ghosts abandoned, forgotten so long.
"It's Phil! It's Phil!" cries the ghost
like the stab of a knife in my heart.
"Yes, I remember now... Phil. I remember
and I won't forget again, I promise."
If only I can make the black clouds
part just long enough tomorrow
to admit a shaft of light from the sun
and make the ghost come alive again!
We're having coffee together tomorrow,
the ghost and I, until another day
when another ghost, not so old or tired,
disembodied, free, may join us:
His youngest sister has cancer.
I pass by in time and wonder
at that house beside the winding road
abandoned for many years
empty hollow and mute tribute
to a family severed from its natural roots
disappeared without a trace
It sits in a small meadow
green mould growing in vinyl siding
grass once a green lawn
scattered with children's toys
and puppies snarling over bones
now a tangle of weeds fallen over covering all
broken rotten toys and old bones
The windows stare in stark emptiness
upon a blind world driving by un-heedful
dirt covers the panes
blinds and drapes falling
bit by bit and piece by piece
to be replaced by the eternal grime
that reduces man's passage
to primal dust in the book of time
The people in that house had a god
they worshipped in weekend rituals
the common god of this land
a god of pleasure fed by death
a household god of taste and stomach
powerless to prevent loss or ease pain
and standing testimony to that god
a leaning idol in the front yard
still stands the dark and rusty barbecue